this blog isent for therapy this time because no thereapy could take the pain from my heart..and soul..the impossible happened...I think im still in denial...but here goes..I had a wonderful friend online who i thought hung the stars..he was that special..anytime i needed help..he was always there and had my back..for two years, hardly a day went by that we didnt speak..we plotted and conived and fought with the bad guys..and laughed that were partners in crime..and we always won...but in the last few months on a site called mobion..ive had problems with a clique of girls on there who hated me and him...they stressed me out on top of what i was already going thru and came real close to a breakdown..and like my knight in shining armor..he was always there..well recently it came to the point that he spent all his time picking up my peices when they hammered me..he finally told me to stay off the site..well, a few days ago, i went back on and was reading blogs and commenting some and i told him about it..then came the explosion..he was so angry..he told me our friendship was over..and goodbye..to lose him as a friend was pain ive never known..why? why did he dump our friendship for me not taking his advice???? he could have said.."your on your own"..or "dont come crying to me if they attack"..but to tell me goodbye?..i have been diagnosed with PTSD...and i guess hes afraid the attacks will put me over the edge..i hope in time he think about this cause he is such a good man, and maybe we can work it out....theres nothing i want more......Linda