TWO WEEKS TODAY....

i quit smoking..and its been really hard...i still crave them but i have the willpower to say no!....this last week has been strange..im still having a hard time sleeping..i lay there all night and feel like im always awake..and now im losing my self confidence..i was combing my hair for work yesterday and thought to myself, that im so ugly...it came out of nowhere and then i actually had the fleeting thought that i should kill myself before anyone sees me..it was crazy but i instantly knew it was the pills causing it and im aware of it so i can fight it..i cant quit the pills now..i have one more week to go on them for the first step..and since a lot of people are done after the first step,..im hoping that im one of them..wish me luck..

ONE WEEK

One week ago today, i smoked my last cigarette ever...its really been a rough week so dont let anyone tell you its easy to quit...the chantix im taking changed my attitude somewhat but i was made aware of it and im trying my best to adjust it and so far, its better..no matter what happens..i refuse to stop taking these pills..they are helping me do something that i could never do before.....and i will accept what ever happens and deal with it......Linda

DAY 4

yesterday was a bad day..i was so crabby that i refused to go to work..i stayed home and to vent my frustrations..i moved all the furniture around in my bedroom...it was heavy and took a couple of hours but i did it and felt better after i was done..i relaxed watching tv in bed and turned out my lite at 10.00..i got a good nites sleep and was up at 8am this morning..i have to be honest with you..i really want a cigerette so bad and im not sure how long it takes for the craving to go away..but i think its going to be a fight to the finish...when i started taking chantix..one of my friends at work did it too...it was just a coincedence but cool..we were comparing notes and symptems and it made it a little easier..well he broke down tuesday and bought a pack of cigerettes and smoked half of them before he realised how dumb he was...but dont worry...im going to beat this... no matter what......Linda

DAY 3

here it is ...day 3 and im starting to feel some changes..last nite was really bad..i couldnt go to sleep no matter how i tried..i tossed and turned and probably dozed of when it got daylight.....last nite when i got home from work my son informed me that the pills are starting to make me mean...that im not the nice person i was before the pills..he said i complain and will argue at the drop of a hat...well he might be right..i will have to watch everything i say and do..along with the change in personality, i noticed a constant nagging headache...and a soreness in my whole body...but on the upside, i noticed that food tastes different...ive been eating ramen noodles for years and loved them so i made some at work last nite...and found out how bad they suck now that i can taste them..lol..and for the record, i still havent smoked so im hoping the end..justifies the means..i will keep you posted.......Linda

DAY 2

well here it is tuesday and i havent had a cigerette since 11pm sunday nite..i didnt know it would be so hard..cigerettes have always been my comfort..my stress reliever..and its hard to give that up with what ive been going thru in my life..but im going to really try...ill take this one day at a time and i know i can do this...im now taking the Chantix  continuing week pack..its different then the first week..i found out yesterday morning when i took my first morning pill..i became extremely sick..i guess i still had nicotine in my system from sunday nite and it reacted..i also got very sick last nite when i took my second pill...but this morning, i took my morning pill and i didnt get that reaction like before..hopefully it means my system is clearing out and i will get well...stay with me..ill beat this.....Linda

DAY 7.....

Well..today is the last day i can smoke...and ive noticed lately..the pills are upsetting my stomach when i do smoke...so last nite, i decided for giggles, to give this a test run..so this morning, i got up at 730 and went right to the coffee pot..poured my coffee and instead of heading back to bed and lighting up a cig with my coffee..i went to my desk and turned on my pc...ive been playing on moga, youtube, facebook and several other sites just to keep my mind off that cigerette calling me from my bedroom..lol..i know ill have one later but i also know that in the morning, i must do the same thing i did today..dont go back to my room..change my morning habits...because  i know that when i get to work, ill stay busy and itll be easier...its 11am here now and i havent had a cig since 11pm last nite..this is going to be very hard but I CAN DO IT!!! be back later....

Day 4

well this is the fourth day ive been taking Chantix...today i notice a few changes in my personality..im breaking into tears for no reason..and i have a nagging headache that wont go away...both are sysptoms i can live with..maybe theyre not even symptoms....last thursday i went to leave for work and my car wouldnt start..and it still isent fixed...i love and miss driving my car and hate bumming rides back and forth to work...the mechanic who is going to pick up the car thinks its a module in the computer system of the car...if it is..thats big money and thats stressing me out too..so see? it could be my everyday problems causing the symptoms..even if it wasent..i wont quit the chantix...i will see this thru at whatever risk there is...ill be back soon..Linda...

The 2nd day..of the rest of my life....

well..yesterday i started to take the drug Chantix..its supposed to help you quit smoking..and with all the possible side effects...im figuring, what cant kill you, will cure you..lol but i decided to blog on a daily basis so i can kind of moniter any strange feelings i might have..well i took my 2nd pill this morning and i feel ok except im very jittery and have kind of a nagging headache which doesnt seem to go away with aspirin...i will continue my treatment regardless, because failing is not an option.....i will write more tomorrow on day three.....*hugz*...Linda