TWO WEEKS TODAY....

i quit smoking..and its been really hard...i still crave them but i have the willpower to say no!....this last week has been strange..im still having a hard time sleeping..i lay there all night and feel like im always awake..and now im losing my self confidence..i was combing my hair for work yesterday and thought to myself, that im so ugly...it came out of nowhere and then i actually had the fleeting thought that i should kill myself before anyone sees me..it was crazy but i instantly knew it was the pills causing it and im aware of it so i can fight it..i cant quit the pills now..i have one more week to go on them for the first step..and since a lot of people are done after the first step,..im hoping that im one of them..wish me luck..