Therapy..continued

well its day 2 and i just got home from my daughters house where we had a cookout...we had steaks, chicken,(my personal favorite!), brats, burgers and hot dogs..and also potato salad, corn and watermelon..it was great food and great company..its funny cause one of there friends asked me out..lol and its been years since ive gone on a date...itll be a while tho cause Carl broke both his legs in a falll so hes temporarily in a wheelchair,,,but now moving on to my problems...i was married at 18 and thought i was the luckiest girl in the world but soon found out i was wrong..we immediatly moved to chicago..where i became pregnet with my daughter...right after we setteled in he began to change...he became verbally abusive calling me awful names saying i was fat and ugly..and the larger my pregnacy got ..the meaner he got..i was very sick with being pregnat..and it made him worse..hed go out drinking after work till the bars closed and come home after i was sleeping..and pull me out of bed and begin beating me...it was so horibble..to try to protect the baby and feel his fists everywhere..i begged him to stop and it made him madder..one night i was sleeping and he brought 4 of his friends home ..woke me up with a punch demanding i get up and cook. breakfast for all of them..was no way i could do it..so he became so angry, he tipped over the bed on top of me and it was a heavy iron bed..it was horrible ..he made me sleep there all night as punishment for not cooking for his friends...you ask why i didnt leave?..i believed him when he said he would kill me if i ever left him..i was far away from my family with no phone and no transportation...so there was no one to help..the neighbors called the police a few times when they heard my screams but the police would tell me..they cant get between a husband and wife..they didnt have domistic battery laws back then..so even tho i was sitting there bleeding and bruised the police walked out and didnt help me...this went on for years and finally they had the domestic battery law and its all that saved me...one night, i came home from work and he was waiting for me..he punched me in the eye blacking it and tried to choke me leavin large bruises on my throat..my kids ran next door and the neighbors called the police..when he heard the sirens..he jumped off me and ran out the back door..the police took pictues of my face and allowed me to sign a complaint...and a warrant was issued for his arrest..they guarded the house all night in case he came back in the night and the sergent drove me too the courthous the next morning to get an order of protection...i didnt really feel safe..because he stalked me 24/7..but it finally ended and before the ink was dry on the divorce papers..he married his long time girfriend who hed been cheating on me with...i felt so good having him out of my life and the kids were happier too...we divorced in august 1993....and in december of 1993...i met danny...he was the opposite of my exhusband in the way he treated me..but he had a dark side too.......to be continued tomorrow nite...