Therapy..part 5...

my blog today is going to cover my relationship with my online boyfriend.. but first i want to tell you that today was my doctors appointment...for my therapy..and she is pleased with me because im taking it so serious... and she gave me an option to have some pills to relax me..but i turned them down flat..i dont need meds..if i get nervous..i call cpher and he comes running and lays in my lap..that comforts me...but getting back to my aley..we started talking on a chat site called ixen in sept of 08... he said all the right things and i fell for him...well were together now but its the fourth time because he kept dumping me and im not sure why...i think he was looking for someone to have steady phone sex with..and i couldnt do it..well i could but id have to be totally in love with the guy first..and i explained that to him but hes willing to hang in there anyway..last month he was diagnosed with acute leukemia and hospitalized for aggresive chemo treatment..he didnt want to tell me because he knew i lost my last 2 boyfriends to death and he didnt want to scare me...and it did..hes still there and doesnt have any results back yet...so that is probably the only real personal stress i have right now.....im not going to blog for long cause i may want to blog again later..i have so much to say..i still have to tell you about my rock n soul mate.. the endless hell chat site i try to stay away from...mobion and even about my job...so i still have a lot to tell you...Linda